Well, I have officially lost 6lbs. That's about 3lbs a week.... I hope I can keep it up. I don't feel any different.. or look any different... feeling just as lousy about myself as usual, but I have to remind myself these things take TIME!!!
Time flies when it comes to work or school or just.. life in general, but when it comes to losing weight it seems to go by incredibly sluggishly.
I've figured out that running on a track at night is incredible. Two nights ago I went to a local track and ran more, farther, faster, and felt better than I ever have! It was great. Lost feeling in my legs for a while afterwards, haha. Good stuff.
The Vibras are great shoes. I thought they hurt my feet one time, but the next time I ran I didnt feel it and I haven't at all since. Woohoo :)
With all the stress in my life right now, it sure is great I started running. It's a great relief. I told my friend that the other night, I almost cried it felt so good to just RUN! And really great music helps a lot, too. I made a special running mix and it's helped more than I imagined.
I'm due for a makeover. I need something new. I'm feeling.. drab. I feel like no matter who I look at they are skinnier and more stylish than me. I've just never been a clothing, hair, and makeup expert. I want to be beautiful, show off my tattoos, do my hair and make up and look GREAT, but I just can't find something that works for me. And to think, I have people telling me how great I look compared to when I lived in Portland. Its a really good thing I didn't weigh myself back then, yeesh.
Anyway. Its time for new hair.. its time for lots of new stuff I think. I keep trying to revamp my wardrobe and just end up wishing I had something else. It will get better. It has to. Clothes aren't everything.
193lbs, and hopefully still going strong.
Thursday, July 12, 2012
Friday, July 6, 2012
Born to Move
Soooooooo. 195. 4 lbs lost total! I've been recording calories for 6 days and running for about a week and a half now.
Today was great. i worked 10 hours. I ate well. I ran. I knitted.
Cant wait to read it.
I ran today, 6 min jog, 2 min walk, 7 min jog, 2 min walk, etc, etc. Only for 30 minutes. But I've been trying to do 30 minutes at least 5 days a week. And on both my days off I walked! I'm definitely encouraged. Its exciting.
Plus I'm eating a lot more fish and I love fish!
I got these Vibra Fivefingers shoes. They make me feel magical. Like I could run forever! (if my damn fat body would let me...):
Today was great. i worked 10 hours. I ate well. I ran. I knitted.
I got a greeeeat book from a friend:
Cant wait to read it.
I ran today, 6 min jog, 2 min walk, 7 min jog, 2 min walk, etc, etc. Only for 30 minutes. But I've been trying to do 30 minutes at least 5 days a week. And on both my days off I walked! I'm definitely encouraged. Its exciting.
Plus I'm eating a lot more fish and I love fish!
I got these Vibra Fivefingers shoes. They make me feel magical. Like I could run forever! (if my damn fat body would let me...):
So needless to say I feel great about everything. Eating healthier.. and I even had a cookie today but I dont think it affected anything and I dont feel like a fatty like I normally would. My spirits are lifted. I am happy. I am moving forward and it feels wonderful.
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Day 4.
So... weighed in this morning at 195. That's good! Its 1lb, but its something.
These are a couple meals I've done...
Oatmeal, chia seeds, walnuts, blueberries, and cinnamon with unsweetened almond milk.
BBQ Tofu with homemade, no-mayo coleslaw.
Both pretty tasty! I've also made this water to drink in the morning. Its actually pretty good!
And I found that Chili's Honey-Lime Vinaigrette is delicious and MUST learn how to re create it!!
Yesterday I bought the five toe shoes. Ones with good soles for running. I am excited to try them out! I've loved them simply because I love being barefoot, but I've heard amazing things about their uses and look forward to using them that way, too. Also, happy 4th of july :)
Oatmeal, chia seeds, walnuts, blueberries, and cinnamon with unsweetened almond milk.
BBQ Tofu with homemade, no-mayo coleslaw.
Both pretty tasty! I've also made this water to drink in the morning. Its actually pretty good!
And I found that Chili's Honey-Lime Vinaigrette is delicious and MUST learn how to re create it!!
Yesterday I bought the five toe shoes. Ones with good soles for running. I am excited to try them out! I've loved them simply because I love being barefoot, but I've heard amazing things about their uses and look forward to using them that way, too. Also, happy 4th of july :)
Monday, July 2, 2012
Today I put my first toe into the tepid waters of blogging once again. I've had online/web based journals before, but here I sit making a commitment to submerge entirely at some point.
I figure tracking my progress in fitness and weight loss may help keep me accountable to myself as well as the world wide web and whoever stumbles upon this blog.
So.... this is going to be a reveal all kinda thing I guess. I'm going to post pictures, document food intake, and voice my frustrations. First of all, I got this ridiculous scale yesterday that is tracking my progress. It tells me if I eat 2117 calories a day it will take me 64 weeks to reach my goal weight of 135lbs. That seems a little.... off? to me. I'm not listening to that scale. Which makes me wonder... is the BMI correct? It puts me at a 30. That puts me in the obesity category. Scary thoughts.
I know its all relative, or whatever, but I want to be healthy. I've invested in things like kombucha and herbal teas and metabolism boosting Dr Oz water concoctions and chia seeds... I've been running/biking consistently for about a week. I'm at the beginnings of my journey. But I hope documenting it will help me see the progress, assuming there will be any.
Here I go. I stepped on the scale yesterday and weighed 196.2 lbs. I am 5'7". I am 24 years old. According to that damn scale I have 40% body fat.
So there is picture number one... with a dirty mirror. My goal is to eventually lose 60 pounds!!! That is so many!!! And so daunting!!! But I will try :)
I have a profile under Sparklefeet on myfitnesspal.com tracking my daily calories.
The goal is 1260 a day.
So far today I am good.
Also my amazing, supportive boyfriend bought me a pedometer today! It will track my steps, cals burned, and distance.
I figure tracking my progress in fitness and weight loss may help keep me accountable to myself as well as the world wide web and whoever stumbles upon this blog.
So.... this is going to be a reveal all kinda thing I guess. I'm going to post pictures, document food intake, and voice my frustrations. First of all, I got this ridiculous scale yesterday that is tracking my progress. It tells me if I eat 2117 calories a day it will take me 64 weeks to reach my goal weight of 135lbs. That seems a little.... off? to me. I'm not listening to that scale. Which makes me wonder... is the BMI correct? It puts me at a 30. That puts me in the obesity category. Scary thoughts.
I know its all relative, or whatever, but I want to be healthy. I've invested in things like kombucha and herbal teas and metabolism boosting Dr Oz water concoctions and chia seeds... I've been running/biking consistently for about a week. I'm at the beginnings of my journey. But I hope documenting it will help me see the progress, assuming there will be any.
Here I go. I stepped on the scale yesterday and weighed 196.2 lbs. I am 5'7". I am 24 years old. According to that damn scale I have 40% body fat.
So there is picture number one... with a dirty mirror. My goal is to eventually lose 60 pounds!!! That is so many!!! And so daunting!!! But I will try :)
I have a profile under Sparklefeet on myfitnesspal.com tracking my daily calories.
The goal is 1260 a day.
So far today I am good.
Also my amazing, supportive boyfriend bought me a pedometer today! It will track my steps, cals burned, and distance.
Created by MyFitnessPal - Free Calorie Counter
Friday, November 7, 2008
Expectations, or lack of.
Conversations I'd like to have with people smarter than me, 6.0 or whatever counting system I am using.
I have been pondering the new way things are recently. The desensitization of our culture to numerous things, and I think aside from language and sexuality, one of the biggest things is care. I think apathy is in. I think it is a trend, and to really, really care about things is definitely out. At least in most ways.
As I'm seeing more and more, its okay to get riled up about a couple things:
1. Its "cool" to be radical when it comes to politics. Young voters are important, and you're cool if you exercise your small voice in this big nation.
2. Its good to be radical when it comes to lifestyle. When it comes to gay marriages, environment, vegetarianism, organic foods; that type of stuff.
Mostly these two things are becoming trends. Really caring about people in your life, about Jesus, about any belief system, about morals and ethics and fighting against the norm--that is certainly uncool. Now that the presidential election is over thats one less thing to care about, one more way to let apathy sink in.
As I talked to a good friend on the phone yesterday, I found myself saying things I didn't know were in my head. (This is amazing, because its usually difficult for me to form a setence out loud). I don't mean to criticize the church, or my church, because it is my home and the only family I have, but I here I go:
People do not want to learn about Jesus, and people do not want to teach about Jesus. We want to preach the ultimate form of acceptance, no matter what. We want to say its okay to do whatever you're doing because we don't judge. We don't want to listen to or teach a boring sermon, we want to sit back and converse and if no real learning gets done, so be it. We don't want to be the ones to take a step out on a limb and say there is a little more to it than that. Maybe a lot more.
My generation, the young adult generation, is all about apathy. Everything is A-OK, no matter what. I personally know this because I am honestly not bothered by just about anything--maybe I should be. We are more concerned with being the new-age church/group of people that accepts everyone, no matter what, that we've forgotten the importance of the actual lessons. We've forgotten the reason Jesus did what he did.
Jesus was the ultimate form of acceptance, but he was also the ultimate radical.
The difference today is if we take a leap, if we go out on a limb and voice our opinions, we're judgemental, or we don't understand, or we're being the opressive church.
To avoid that altogether its better not to say or do anything at all, right? Probably not.
(For the record: I am the worst person on the planet to be thinking these things, because I will never say them, and I will never back them up. I will always love the people in my life despite lifestyles I dont necessarily condone. I will always think a long, drawn out sermon with a lot of scripture reading is boring. I will always adopt apathy because it is easier, and I hate arguments.
But I wonder if I need to learn how to change because the message Jesus had for us was so important that he died. He was in no way apathetic.)
Maybe, even if its something not everyone wants to hear or sit through, we need longer discussions, discussions that challenge and are possibly a little boring, but really have substance. Maybe we need old hymns. Maybe we need to be a little judgemental at times in order to hold each other accountable. Maybe.
I just wonder what its costing us to try and be the cool church of this era.
Another example I'm really coming across a lot is apathy in relationships. We all think we need to be laid back, to let anything go, to be kind and understanding no matter what. But some things just aren't acceptable. It doesn't mean they can't be forgiven or worked through at all, but it also doesn't mean we say "No big deal" and watch it happen over and over again. We have to speak up. People matter.
And it hurts to be the odd person out, the only one giving a gift, lending a hand, or making a phone call, because you know the person had a bad day. When suddenly you feel victimized because you actually paid attention to someone else, because you took action instead of holding onto apathy, you're the one with the label "stalker". Who is looked down upon because you truly care. When did friendships become so shallow?
When did it become okay to endlessly joke about sexuality, to say things only for the sake of saying them? And when did it actually become funny? I know for myself there's very little I laugh at that isn't a sexual innuendo. I want to know where things like ethics went. Why I personally think its okay to drink whenever I want, although I'm five months under legal drinking age. Why do I say its no big deal, and why will I end this rant and probably think nothing of it again?
It's hard to hold onto opinions. It's hard when things are so rapidly changing and we're trying to stick with the ebb and flow of society. It's difficult when today I might feel like this, but tomorrow with a drink in hand I'll be laughing at some stupid joke about a blow job. I just wonder where human morality is going, that's all. What road is it leading us down and why the hell can't I channel all this writing into my novel...?
But, I'm at 13,692 words. Booyah.
I have been pondering the new way things are recently. The desensitization of our culture to numerous things, and I think aside from language and sexuality, one of the biggest things is care. I think apathy is in. I think it is a trend, and to really, really care about things is definitely out. At least in most ways.
As I'm seeing more and more, its okay to get riled up about a couple things:
1. Its "cool" to be radical when it comes to politics. Young voters are important, and you're cool if you exercise your small voice in this big nation.
2. Its good to be radical when it comes to lifestyle. When it comes to gay marriages, environment, vegetarianism, organic foods; that type of stuff.
Mostly these two things are becoming trends. Really caring about people in your life, about Jesus, about any belief system, about morals and ethics and fighting against the norm--that is certainly uncool. Now that the presidential election is over thats one less thing to care about, one more way to let apathy sink in.
As I talked to a good friend on the phone yesterday, I found myself saying things I didn't know were in my head. (This is amazing, because its usually difficult for me to form a setence out loud). I don't mean to criticize the church, or my church, because it is my home and the only family I have, but I here I go:
People do not want to learn about Jesus, and people do not want to teach about Jesus. We want to preach the ultimate form of acceptance, no matter what. We want to say its okay to do whatever you're doing because we don't judge. We don't want to listen to or teach a boring sermon, we want to sit back and converse and if no real learning gets done, so be it. We don't want to be the ones to take a step out on a limb and say there is a little more to it than that. Maybe a lot more.
My generation, the young adult generation, is all about apathy. Everything is A-OK, no matter what. I personally know this because I am honestly not bothered by just about anything--maybe I should be. We are more concerned with being the new-age church/group of people that accepts everyone, no matter what, that we've forgotten the importance of the actual lessons. We've forgotten the reason Jesus did what he did.
Jesus was the ultimate form of acceptance, but he was also the ultimate radical.
The difference today is if we take a leap, if we go out on a limb and voice our opinions, we're judgemental, or we don't understand, or we're being the opressive church.
To avoid that altogether its better not to say or do anything at all, right? Probably not.
(For the record: I am the worst person on the planet to be thinking these things, because I will never say them, and I will never back them up. I will always love the people in my life despite lifestyles I dont necessarily condone. I will always think a long, drawn out sermon with a lot of scripture reading is boring. I will always adopt apathy because it is easier, and I hate arguments.
But I wonder if I need to learn how to change because the message Jesus had for us was so important that he died. He was in no way apathetic.)
Maybe, even if its something not everyone wants to hear or sit through, we need longer discussions, discussions that challenge and are possibly a little boring, but really have substance. Maybe we need old hymns. Maybe we need to be a little judgemental at times in order to hold each other accountable. Maybe.
I just wonder what its costing us to try and be the cool church of this era.
Another example I'm really coming across a lot is apathy in relationships. We all think we need to be laid back, to let anything go, to be kind and understanding no matter what. But some things just aren't acceptable. It doesn't mean they can't be forgiven or worked through at all, but it also doesn't mean we say "No big deal" and watch it happen over and over again. We have to speak up. People matter.
And it hurts to be the odd person out, the only one giving a gift, lending a hand, or making a phone call, because you know the person had a bad day. When suddenly you feel victimized because you actually paid attention to someone else, because you took action instead of holding onto apathy, you're the one with the label "stalker". Who is looked down upon because you truly care. When did friendships become so shallow?
When did it become okay to endlessly joke about sexuality, to say things only for the sake of saying them? And when did it actually become funny? I know for myself there's very little I laugh at that isn't a sexual innuendo. I want to know where things like ethics went. Why I personally think its okay to drink whenever I want, although I'm five months under legal drinking age. Why do I say its no big deal, and why will I end this rant and probably think nothing of it again?
It's hard to hold onto opinions. It's hard when things are so rapidly changing and we're trying to stick with the ebb and flow of society. It's difficult when today I might feel like this, but tomorrow with a drink in hand I'll be laughing at some stupid joke about a blow job. I just wonder where human morality is going, that's all. What road is it leading us down and why the hell can't I channel all this writing into my novel...?
But, I'm at 13,692 words. Booyah.
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