unstylish

Well, I have officially lost 6lbs. That's about 3lbs a week.... I hope I can keep it up. I don't feel any different.. or look any different... feeling just as lousy about myself as usual, but I have to remind myself these things take TIME!!!

Time flies when it comes to work or school or just.. life in general, but when it comes to losing weight it seems to go by incredibly sluggishly.

I've figured out that running on a track at night is incredible. Two nights ago I went to a local track and ran more, farther, faster, and felt better than I ever have! It was great. Lost feeling in my legs for a while afterwards, haha. Good stuff.

The Vibras are great shoes. I thought they hurt my feet one time, but the next time I ran I didnt feel it and I haven't at all since. Woohoo :)

With all the stress in my life right now, it sure is great I started running. It's a great relief. I told my friend that the other night, I almost cried it felt so good to just RUN! And really great music helps a lot, too. I made a special running mix and it's helped more than I imagined.

I'm due for a makeover. I need something new. I'm feeling.. drab. I feel like no matter who I look at they are skinnier and more stylish than me. I've just never been a clothing, hair, and makeup expert. I want to be beautiful, show off my tattoos, do my hair and make up and look GREAT, but I just can't find something that works for me. And to think, I have people telling me how great I look compared to when I lived in Portland. Its a really good thing I didn't weigh myself back then, yeesh.

Anyway. Its time for new hair.. its time for lots of new stuff I think. I keep trying to revamp my wardrobe and just end up wishing I had something else. It will get better. It has to. Clothes aren't everything.

193lbs, and hopefully still going strong.